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morning stings! [10 Dec 2008|12:12am]
[ mood | drained ]

Since all my dear friends were so incensed by my last post (thanks!!!), I figured I should just reply by making an update about my day today. Never a dull moment!

Last night, I called Aero at a time that I knew my store manager wouldn't be in anymore and one of the assistant managers, Kate (which is a different person than Katy), to ask if I was supposed to not come in today if I didn't have a doctor's note. Clearly I didn't go out and get one. Which is ridiculous to think that I could even make an appointment at my doctor's to get a note after 12 noon on a Monday. I mean, if they're going to demand a doctor's note every I'm out or sick I think they ought to provide medical benefits so I can afford it since I don't have medical insurance. That aside, Kate was telling me how stupid she thought the whole thing was. How her and Katy (the other assistant manager) were talking about how I never call out and how reliable I am and how this kind of thing is what's causing everyone to quit. Which is true-true-true! But, she told me to come in anyway. That he might send me home if I didn't have my note, but she said she'd just tell him she told me to come in since I couldn't get to the doctor's that day. I was still annoyed that I should be bothered about doctor's notes for a 4hr on-call shift, but it did feel good to feel backed up by the assistants. Especially Kate since she was always up the store manager's ass. Even she's tired of his shit. That's really saying something.

So when I got there this morning, Katy said, "are you ready?" and I said, "for what?" and she said, "To quit?" - her and I have that kind of relationship, but that's the kind of note that's sort of been ringing throughout this holiday season! Katy said she didn't agree with what he said and that she thought the rule was that you had to be sick for three consecutive days for them to ask for any kind of doctor's note. Be that as it may, when I went in the back to put my things away and clock in and he was back there (they were having a manager's meeting) and was all friendly - maybe a little TOO friendly - and I said little more than necessary and went back out. When he came out to leave and he was giving me some instruction, he was all, "are you ok?" as he was walking by and I said, "I'm sick.." and he kept going. I'm not sure if he heard me. I assume he did, but he didn't say anything back. Nor did he say anything about the doctor's note. And he never did when he came back in for his shift at 2pm. It was never brought up at all. Which I'm definitely not complaining about!

That being said, I'm not going to any amount of effort to get one no matter what he thinks. Katy did a little research and brought new light to this "policy". Clearly stated in the employee guidelines, you can only be terminated if you are a no call, no show for three consecutive days. Furthermore, you are only expected to call an hour before your shift begins if you cannot come into work (I called two hours before). No where in there does it say ANYTHING about providing a doctor's note. So, I'm not bringing one in. And I happened to say something about how I didn't understand why it was such a big deal since it was only an on-call and Katy was a taken back. She hadn't known that. Apparently I cannot be fired for an on-call as they're not the same as a regularly scheduled shift. That if I don't call in for an on-call, they can't fire me for it. I mean, I'm not the kind of person to just ignore my job duties despite this information, but still, that just goes to show what kind of ass my store manager is. He's going around making up his own policies now. Just inventing things to threaten employees with. I hate him.

And I had to work with him from 2 to 6. I spent so little time doing my job in the back room. Katy and I were trying to make room in the back by filling as much into the tables as we could and that took up a lot of time. But because people randomly quit and new people have this way of saying "oh I confused my schedule!" and not showing up. For the 2nd or 3rd time in a row. Do THEY have to bring in any doctor's note and be threatened with termination? NOPE! I heard him on the phone with Will, who was yet again a no call, no show. I predicted Will would say he confused his schedule because that's what he says every time. All my store manager did was tell him they had to have a talk about this and maybe they'd cut his hours until he can learn to come in (I wish that was the threat I got!!!), but I also heard him insisting that he needed him. I was working the cash register for two hours (not my job!) because of these people. Shipment didnt get done. And tomorrow I've got to go in and work extra hours because of someone that quit recently. And yet, he threatened to fire me.

Is it just me or is that so fucking backwards? I feel so under appreciated.

And a lot of you were saying that I should talk to my district manager about his behavior, etc etc. In so many words, I did do that. Yesterday afternoon in fact. Yeah, I'm not the type to just lay down and let someone get away with something that I think is generally wrong. Especially not when they're making far more money than me and making my life hell. Not to mention telling me that I have a bad work ethic just because I hate my job. When they say, "Do you want to come in...?" I always say, "I don't WANT to, but I will" he has a problem with it. Who wants to go to work? Especially when they're making minimum wage and dealing with pricks like him?! I wanted to tell him I didn't used to hate my job until he started, but I figured that was unprofessional. After all, two wrongs don't make a right.

I'm rambling hardcore. I could probably go on and on venting about him. It really irked me that he told me that if I used better time management, I would have plenty of time to do music. Anyone that tells you that is probably not musical or creative which he clearly is neither. I can't plan inspiration. I can't pencil it in. He thinks getting home every night after 6pm is plenty of time to have a band. He must be fucking retarded if he thinks that. Maybe that's okay for some people who don't live with their parents or their parents don't go to bed at 8pm, but that's my situation. And my prime writing times? The middle of the afternoon and the middle of the night. Both times that I can't do in my current living/working status.

It's frustrating.

But I took off my vacation days today! From January 3rd til January 11th Aero may not bother me! I'll be on my way to Florida (Jamie and I are takin a roadtrip for my birthday!) so they can call if they want, but I won't be available! muahahaha! Course, when I asked Katy to put it in the calendar she said, "If you're still here then.." haha But seriously, I may quit before then. You never know! Everyday is a new day!

This got long.

I'm going to end it here.

Thanks for all the sweet comments! It feels good to know I'm not being totally irrational or naive about things. I mean, I know retail sucks, but he just seems so out of line. But really thanks again friends and family!!! I didn't even think anyone read LJ anymore.. ;)

- jenell

ps. check out what i did on your piano, andrew:

(3 dead peoples | wake up dead)

Aero blows. [08 Dec 2008|07:12pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I've had some time to chill out. Got some Christmas shopping done. Eating some chicken noodle soup. So, I'm going to take a few minutes to be more specific about why I hate my job. Mainly for venting purposes. Maybe also for some vindication.

So, this weekend I've been sort of ill. Ill in the sense that I'm in constant pain. Anyone that suffers from canker sores know that they're painful, but I don't know that many people that gets them in large clusters the way that I do. One side of my cheek/gums/tongue just a mine field of sores. It's not pretty. I don't mean to be foul. But it's what I live with. I don't get them as much as I used to, but whenever I'm getting sick and my immune system is weakened (or I'm very stressed), I get them. I've been sort of fighting off a cold so my mouth is just a cluster of pain. I try to tough it out and continue to function and talk, but it's not fun and I don't relish it. I hate canceling band practice since we only get to practice once a week, but Saturday singing just was not an option.

That being said, today I had an on-call shift from 2 to 6. Which means I call in at 1 and I ask if they need me and if they do, I come in. When I got up, I was in pain and not feeling well. Today is also December 8th. If you know me well enough you know what that means. Point being, I just wasn't feeling up to going in. If it was a full shift and merch flow was completely on me, I probably would have forced myself to go in, but figuring it was just an on-call shift to do left over shit, I decided to call out.

Calling out of work; something I've never done the entire time I've worked there. I've worked there since May. Never missed a day. Never missed an on-call. Sure, I haven't always been volunteering to help out with 6am floor sets or whatever, but I've covered people's shifts, I've stayed late on many occasions and furthermore I've worked very, very hard. Probably harder than most people. I don't think taking off for a four hour shift (which is only scheduled for me to cover someone's ass) is too much to ask.

So I call in and Matt, my store manager, answers and I tell him that I'm not going to be able to come in today. He asks why. I say because I'm not feeling well enough to. That I have bad canker sores and that I'm in pain. So what does he tell me? That I have to get a doctor's note.

A fucking doctor's note for a cold and a canker sore?

I can't remember exactly how he worded it, but basically, if I don't deliver a doctor's note, I'm fired.

Makes me want to laugh. I bet when he called out on Friday for the entire day and Katy and Kate had to cover his shift (because his car broke down) he probably doesn't have to bring in a note from his mechanic verifying the story. Besides the fact that the day my car was hit outside of my house, I STILL made it into work. An associate. Not a fucking store manager. I made it in. So now when I call out FOR AN ON-CALL I have to bring in a doctor's note or I'm fired. RIDICULOUS!

I can't stand him. He's a tyrant. He calls the associates "fucking idiots" and "fucking bitches" behind their backs. He's lazy and cuts corners and yells at everyone else to go "faster, faster". Furthermore, he said defamatory things about Jewish people to me and then said, "... Are you Jewish?" I'm not, but what if I was? And, my religion aside, he said things that I found offensive. He could have been worse, but it's just the whole idea of him being the store manager, the authority. He has no respect for women. I do believe he's a racist and clearly is a bigot.

So, I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow when I go into work. I don't have a doctor's note. My mom is going to try to get me one, but if I didn't have her connections to the hospital, I don't know if I would be able to. It's not like a doctor visit is cheap. I don't have medical insurance.

I don't know. There's just a lot of shit going around inside of my head. All the things that I find so wrong about my job. How frustrated I am. How unhappy I am. Working Monday through Friday feels like I'm back in high school. Getting up early everyday and doing the same thing again and again and again. The repetition is killing me. I'm miserable. I got this job to make a little money while I worked on my music and now it's taken over the majority of my life. I can really only see the band on Saturdays and if we started playing shows I don't know when I'd even have time to practice or prepare. I feel like I have to lie to get time off work just so I can even see Vince for a few hours. My dog needs booster shots, but I just don't know when I could do that. Not that I could afford it. I don't know. I'm in a rut. I'm not happy. I'm making due and I know that I'm lucky to even have a job, but it's not good to have a job where the hours I get feel more like a punishment rather than something good. I think I'm going to have to start looking around. The holiday temps make as much as I do and I worked there since May and I have a million times more responsibility than them. It's so frustrating. The pay check is not big enough for me to put up with this. There's no light at the end of the tunnel. I just want to say fuck it.

I think that's enough about Aero. I'm getting frustrated again. Today sucks. It does every year, though, so I guess that's nothing new.

- jenell

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Cowboy Weddings are redonelous [06 Sep 2008|03:14pm]
[ mood | confused ]

I'm making my first attempt at posting an entry from my phone. Why today? Because I'm currently sitting in a large arena normally used for rodeos to bare witness to a "cowboy wedding". Any minute now the bride & groom will come riding in to commit to an eternity of yeehaw. The best way to sum up the attaire (despite the Mozart playing on the loud speakers..) worn by the guests would be best represented by the cowgirl that put on her Sunday best, her crocs. And now the flower girl is wheeling a baby in a wagon? Do I seriously smell beer? yep. Romance is definitely in the air!

(5 dead peoples | wake up dead)

stop playing with my heart, finish what you start [23 Dec 2007|06:55pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]


Yesterday my mother, my brother, and I went over to visit lil Samuel to bestow some Christmas presents on him. But I guess considering he's only about 6 months old, the presents were more for Jessi. Anyway, I know there's at least a handful of people that want to see a few pictures so I'm going to post a few. If you're not into babies or you're emotionally distraught that you weren't the mother of the first born of my brother, this is not a lj-cut that you want to click into. Honestly, I'm not really into babies but he's just a cute baby. I guess he's an exception. I think my dad put it best when he said, "Good thing (he's cute). I've seen enough ugly ones, we don't need anymore of those." haaaaaaaaaha

Samuel is STYLIN'Collapse )

I guess that's all of the pictures I'm going to post.

In other news, I'm pretty prepared for Christmas asides from a battery issue that's arisen because I lost this tiny battery in Jamie's car and then I tried to buy a replacement and it showed to be harder than one would think and then Jamie found it and then she lost it again. But she doesnt know where. But apparently she's looking for it again RIGHT NOW. We'll see how this pans out.

I went and visited Harry today and it was a total bummer. And it was windy as fuck.
Then I stopped by at Bryan's to give him his Christmas gift and Jaime "The Boob" Boobar was there like she basically constantly is now. It's not a big deal but it did get weird. I was looking for a certain Beatles record he told me he had and they were whispering on the couch and I was going to wait til it stopped pouring like a motherfucker before I left, but I felt like I was absolutely interrupting something between them and it was kind of making me want to throw up. So, I skipped on out of there without acting weird. I think I did alright. I was a little kind of off from being at the cemetary and then I have to be faced with that horror? Not right. Yikes.
Well, I'm glad I went to the cemetary anyway...

I could probably say a few words about my CD release and what not, but I don't know how much I have to say about it. I guess I didn't think much of it. I don't know. I am my own worst critic, but I don't know, I don't think it's that good. It's alright, but I've heard a lot better. But there's been a lot of feedback that I definitely didn't anticipate at all. All positive so far. But it's kind of a weird thing for me. Just sounds like me to me. I guess that sounds stupid, but in my head it made a lot of sense. I don't know. I'm glad it's being well received. I just hope we can push the momentum further and that more people will feel that way, I guess. I don't honestly expect that to happen, but it would be nice. I'm like past it. I'm ready to record new stuff. I'm so over Localized Phenomenon haha.

Another thing I'm over? Having a jealous exboyfriend. Matt is a total tool. We dated like a hundred years ago (it feels) and he acts like we just recently broke up sometimes. I don't understand what it is about me that makes people think they should try to lay guilt trips on me about shit. I don't hassle people about what they want to do. I don't think I do. Not seriously. I don't sit around and make them feel bad for doing something that I want to do. I don't fucking get it. I don't need shit like that in my life. I'm unemployed, in debt, and the band and band related things take up about 90% of my time and I just don't have the money or the time to be brought down. I seriously don't fucking need it. He apologized today and I told him I would forgive him. It's not like I hate him for wanting to spend more time with me, but I'm still annoyed that he fucked up my Christmas day. People need to just fucking back off.

I'm rambling.

It's too close to Christmas for this sort of post.

Going to a party at Jimmy's later. I hope it's fun.

Hope everyone has a Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year!


(3 dead peoples | wake up dead)

you are my shining star [24 Sep 2007|03:33pm]
[ mood | working ]

I got the clearance to post this in my myspace page, but then I was informed to post it "EVERYWHERE" so in trying to be as cooperative as possible, I'm going to post this here as well. What am I talking about? Well, I'll tell you. My 3rd Friday shows are normally ridiculously long and Jamie gets ridiculously bored, but it gives her lots of time to sit on the curb and play with her best friend, camera, and to make a long story short, this is the end result of my boring shows and my great advice:

man, was that so good it hurt you? OW!

Oh LJ, how you've become just another forum for me to promote my career. haha


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ding. [05 Jul 2007|09:00pm]
[ mood | curious ]

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yet another great opportunity to hear the sweet sounds of moi! [22 Mar 2007|01:16am]
[ mood | working ]

For those that do not have myspace, TAKE HEED!
Limited time offer!
After Friday it will be too late!

but if you do miss it for some sad, unforunate reason....

Saturday, March 24th (THE VERY NEXT DAY!!!) @ Memories Lounge 7pm $5
Friday, April 6th @ Bogarts 7pm
Saturday, April 21st @ Memories Lounge $5

come out! I wanna see all your happy, shiney, smiling faces!!!
or whatever faces you got!!

- jenell

(2 dead peoples | wake up dead)

cuz some people don't have myspace anymore [09 Mar 2007|01:04am]
[ mood | good ]


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March 9th - as in - FRIDAY, March 9th - I'll be performing at Memories Lounge on Route 40 in Richland, NJ. Never heard of Richland? Well, it's right next to Buena on Route 40. It's terribly easy to find and it's going to be an AWESOME show that you don't want to miss! Please come out and support!

Amy, I was going to call you about this, but time has just slipped away so I hope you see this in time!

But if anyone needs directions or further information, just call me or email me or whatever.

The doors open at 6:30!
I'm going to be going on sometime after 9!

Again, tomorrow, March 9th, at Memories Lounge in Richland, NJ on Route 40!

(1 dead people | wake up dead)

tough titties. [01 Jan 2005|03:08am]

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you're funny. [30 Mar 2004|10:40pm]
[ mood | busy ]

"not going to New Jersey isn't procrastination, it's common sense"

amen to THAT!

I'm a busy little bee.

- jenell *

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i love this guy... [29 Mar 2004|11:37pm]
[ mood | amused ]

"the only thing they have in West Chester are pools and fools"

- David Spade

*points at Jamie, Stef, Matt and anyone else I know from WC*


"you don't look like a pool so...you must be the other kind!"

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oh stoooooop :P [17 Mar 2004|03:11pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Silly Flirt

What Kind of FLIRT are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

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oh happy day! [15 Mar 2004|01:24am]
[ mood | tired ]

Theme songs of your life by eponine
your name?
love song:i wanna hold your hand - the beatles
depressing song:im ok - christina aguilera
party song:crazy love - boomkat
what-the-hell-ever song:how soon is now - t.A.t.U
your lifecan't hold us down - christina aguilera
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

I got a Beatles song & Xtina! Woot Woot!

(1 dead people | wake up dead)

true. all true. [12 Mar 2004|12:35am]
[ mood | groggy ]

Which Johnny Depp character do you belong with? by cerulean_dreams
You fall in love with
You meeton a rollercoaster in CP
His friends thinkYou belong together
Your friends thinkYou guys are perfect together
You willscrew every night
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

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eeeeeeee!!!!! [06 Mar 2004|10:36pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]


I met Hal Sparks from Queer As Folk!

so much to do!
I must flee!
more details sure to follow!

- jenell *

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last time I updated it was with a quiz... [01 Mar 2004|01:43am]
[ mood | tired ]

You are the Marquis Da Sade. Even stripped of
exaggerations, Your real life was as dramatic
and as tragic as a cautionary tale. Born to an
ancient and noble house, you were married
(against your wishes) to a middle-class heiress
for money, caused scandals with prostitutes and
with your sister-in-law, thus enraging your
mother-in-law, who had you imprisoned under a
lettre de cachet for 14 years until the
Revolution freed you. Amphibian, protean,
charming, you became a Revolutionary,
miraculously escaping the guillotine during the
Terror, only to be arrested later for
publishing your erotic novels. You spent your
final 12 years in the insane asylum at
Charenton, where you caused another scandal by
directing plays using inmates and professional
actors. You died there in 1814, virtually in
the arms of your teenage mistress.
You are a revolutionary deviant. I applaud you.

Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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I used to love this show! haha [26 Feb 2004|01:49am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

You are CLARISSA EXPLAINS IT ALL. She is a rad
chick with absolutely no fashion sense. If you
are a guy and chose this... you are gay.

Which old school Nickelodeon show are you?
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happy 61st birthday, george! [25 Feb 2004|02:53pm]
[ mood | busy ]

At their first session, when the Beatles were asked by George Martin if there wasn't anything they didn't like, George Harrison replied:

"Well, I don't like your tie for a start."

Happy Birthday, George!!!

I think it's awfully nice of the Good Charlottes to have a concert in Las Vegas in honor of George Harrison's birthday. uh huh. it's very nice. Good going boys! I applaud you! As I'm sure many, many 14 yr old girls shall be doing tonight. haha

I have to pick my brother up from Ocean City in like an hour and I have 6 medical reports to do before tomorrow. My night is going to be FUN! haha Ahhh well, if I get them done then maybe I can have some money for when I go see The Sounds and Kill Hannah on Friday! woooo!!!!!!!
Celebrate good times COME ON!!!

I'm going to go do something more productive than updating my lj now. well, probably NOT but I'm at least going to pretend it's more productive. *nod*


- jenell *

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procrastination is time consuming [19 Feb 2004|07:19pm]
[ mood | exanimate ]

Step 1: Open your Winamp or other lesser MP3 player.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first 20 songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing

My Top 20 list!Collapse )

yeah, I probably didn't have to do that just NOW but...oh well.
I'm really going to fold this laundry now.
no more distractions!
no more playing with photoshop or pictures or my music!
have an away message up and EVERYTHING!

- jenell *

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she is so like 20 now. [17 Feb 2004|01:58pm]
[ mood | rushed ]


Yeah, and I'm still at home.
I'm such a fuckin loser!
I need to get my ass in GEAR!
Need to be doing that "vroom vroom" thing in my car. *nod*

so yeah. have a hot fuckin birthday, duder.
yeah. no hood required. ;)

- jenell *

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